Vesuvius – Thisabsurdworld

1111.

Because of my childhood, I have been doomed to a life of thinking about ‘religion’

1110.

Honestly, sometimes I hope I’m dead wrong, but I can’t see it differently right now. I hope I can see it differently in the future

1109.

Yes, I am an arrogant hypocrite who tries not to be an arrogant hypocrite but in doing so remains an arrogant hypocrite

1108.

Very carefully, I place my thoughts in expected structure, but all of a sudden they are not my thoughts anymore but my expected thoughts. So I broke with expected structure to free my thoughts

1107.

Pointing out the social theatre in real life is like pointing out that a play is just a play while you’re performing it

1106.

In a way, you have to be smart to know that you’re not smart

1105.

If you hear something long enough, you start to believe it

1104.

By not speaking about it, we teach our children not to speak about it

1103.

Much philosophy seems smart because we don’t quite understand what is really being said

1100.

You want a philosophy without doubt but then you simply don’t understand philosophy well enough because philosophy finds its origin in doubt, doubt is her basis

1099.

You must remain in contact with people, you must. For experience and some connection

1098.

How to love the people in a system that you hate

1097.

Do something long enough and it becomes your way of life, it becomes ‘who you are’

1096.

Education is never where truth is discovered

1095.

I don’t invoke anything, so also not truth

1094.

It’s not even that something is missing; we don’t even reach it

[Human limitation]

1093.

‘But when can children decide that?’ And when can we decide when children can decide that or not? [We arrogantly think we know better]

1092.

We can’t understand that which moves, and everything moves

1091.

We do not live with movement, because we want to understand everything and in order to understand something it must stand still and not change

[Our resistance to the movement of life is a large cause of our anguish]

1090.

You can’t just stay in a morally wrong situation because it is comfortable (‘morally wrong’ as a concept in the social theatre of course, so relative)

1089.

Things are not set in stone, for there is no stone to set things in.

1088.

The way the world works is no more than a religion to the ‘average’ person (the person in the social theatre without awareness of the social theatre)

1087.

Don’t you feel your future in your body? In your soul? What you will think, a few years away from your death. What you will feel. You are now the past of your deceased self

1086.

All are fools, especially those who think they are not fools

1085.

In the collapse of everything, the collapse of yourself is also imminent. Do not fear you own collapse

1084.

Philosophy has a ‘weak’ place in the social theatre because it is not understood. Only things that are understood get a ‘strong’ place in the social theatre.

1083.

It’s time to put the eyes in the backseat. They may watch but not say

An existential ‘crisis’ or the collapse of all systems is only a crisis because we have experienced the systems before. Because of our past in the systems, we have gotten used to it and it is then ‘bad’ if it falls away

1081.

Don’t delude yourself an expert on someone who is dead. (‘This philosopher would say…’)

1080.

I don’t need to be ‘helped’. I tell you that I want to die and that is it. No ‘help’. Just that what it is

1079.

There must be an unawareness of the social theatre, otherwise we could not function. For all that are truly aware of it do not wish to function in it perhaps. So most are doomed to be unaware of it

1078.

Is following only your passions close-minded? Does that close other options?

1077.

I only remember the mornings of the nights I wasn’t drunk

1076.

Only when we have nothing in the social theatre, can we see the fundamental nothingness of life. If he would love me I don’t think I could have seen that emptiness. I had to be broken

1075.

Life moves ever on. With this thought comes fundamental non-attachment. It is okay for things to pass

1074.

Realness and meaning and so on is a matter of perspective. Yes from a human perspective this is real and meaningful. But if we want to understand the world and our role in it, surely we must try to have a world perspective and not a human perspective

1073.

It is the death of knowledge for we have no knowledge of death

1072.

I am also just a child of my time and environment

1071.

Slow and small, that is how it goes, that is a good way for it to go

1070.

What significance does my age have? Does my age add or diminish anything to the meaning of what I have written?

1069.

Do we ever breathe in all the way?

1068.

‘What is the meaning of life?’ What do you mean when you say life? Do you mean life as in that which exists or life as in the human life in the social theatre?

1067.

Every day we have the option of looking at the sky but many days we don’t

1066.

Patience is not waiting, it is letting be

1065.

Even revolution builds on what was before

1064.

This is indeed the crucial definition; what is ‘real’?

1063.

Home is nowhere and therefore everywhere

1062.

To be twenty and talk about destiny seems funny, perhaps naive

1061.

Vesuvius. I throw it in, it exists for a short time, and then it burns

1060.

How can the ‘coincidental’ structure be that we are a creature that can fully understand the world. How can you think that without believing in a God

1059.

The cold puts us to death and the warmth to sleep

1058.

To go there where no one does

1057.

The compilation of someone else’s work seems intimidating but that is because we forget it is a compilation; creation over time compiled into dense art. Effort and time are behind every compilation. And also a chaotic mind, an unstructured person trying to be structured

1056.

Why are we taught to kill bugs?

1055.

I can do nothing else than letting my brain do its thing. I can not think that which others think

1054.

Perhaps ‘healthy’ is the exception

1053.

It has never been man versus nature. Only nature

1052.

For the record? There is no ‘the record’. Nothing is written down, not even the things that have been written down

1051.

If walking in circles is stress behavior, then all humans exhibit it. Some more clear than others, some more literal. But in one way or another, we’re walking around in circles

1050.

You hate the eyes but you love them. It is exactly those eyes that make you ‘something’, ‘interesting’. And you want that

1049.

You feel it; you want to be seen. Seen yet alone. Seen and induce shock. You love being different, you don’t want people to be like you at all, because that makes you jealous, that makes you insecure. You would rather they stay in their misery so that you have some sort of upper hand. Do you see how your ego plays here? You must do something with this. As long as your ego drives you, misery like this and arrogance like this follows

1048.

You will never reach all

1047.

How small is your world if you only sit on things we have called chairs

1046.

Do not mistake my silence as defeat. You think your words are really something, that they give you worth. And you drown in the sludge that is certainty-arrogance

1045.

The time between child and adult is so interesting: we rebel against the life that our parents have fallen asleep in and we make ready our own bed for the future. I suppose that is why this age is the most ‘crazy’, because we are not asleep anywhere

1044.

I strangely admire your ability to be ignorant (to all those invested in the social theatre)

1043.

And so in order to protect our children, we pretend they are not humans and let them have no real connections. In our society it is not possible as ‘an adult’ to have a connection with ‘a child’

1042.

Living with ‘without’

1041.

I share because if I wait until I am asked, I will never share anything

1040.

We must watch out for the academy as a place to flee to

1039.

Philosophy is tossed aside when it gets too uncomfortable, too confronting (by the unwise)

1038.

There are two types of philosophy: the defined, demarcated, understood philosophy and the undefined, un-understood philosophy

1037.

Time is infinitely divisible, how can we ever say that a moment passes on to ‘the next one’. In this we also see the story that we stick onto reality so as to understand it

1036.

I wish I could hold death so that I would know it

1035.

We think we can make a world without ambiguity. How laughable

1034.

So many have drowned in this capitalism. And in the social theatre

1033.

So many things are not said because we are terrified out of our minds. We are terrified to be genuine, be ourself in the social theatre. If we don’t wear costumes and use merely an image of ourself, if that falls away, we are vulnerable, we are terrified. Even more than terrified